Let There be Light
Complete darkness encloses me. Nothing, but a black and cold world. I stand in the middle of a huge deep canyon. I look up, the sky is entirely starless. Dark and heavy clouds hover above the earth. I need to get…
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Unfinished Business: Great Disappointment.
Negative thoughts have been with me all day. They keep popping in, bothering me, nagging and nagging, until of course, I write it all out. They repeated the same scenario of great disappointment; the type of disappointment that one feels when they realize they’ve been wrong,…
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Broken Pieces
I can’t sleep. I wake up at 1, 2, 3 am. Most nights still, whatever or whoever it is, it navigates a way to find me. Strangely, I anticipate it. Strangely, I know it will come. Strangely, I don’t ignore it.…
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Life’s Many Wonders
I’m going to attempt to explain this as best as I can; though I’m sure it will not be understood the way it makes me feel inside. I’m trying to grasp everything the best way possible, but it’s out of my conscious mind to do…
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Everyone’s in Our Life for a …
I truly believe that every person is in our life for a reason. It could be an aquentance, a short conversation with a stranger, or the obvious friends, who create an interesting experience. And I find that, even in my job I meet souls who fill…
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On Soulful Days
Both writing and painting have become friendly companions on soulful days. If I were asked to choose which one I prefer; I wouldn’t be able to decide. There is no first or second place winner. They’re both equally important, yet have very different personalities.…
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When Everything Stops
There are moments in life when everything stops, and a wave of terrifying possibilities flood your mind… Yesterday, my daughter and I were playing in her room. She accidently jumped off the bed and landed on her back, hitting her head. For…
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Cycle Repeated
I’m not ashamed to cry. Tears can be a good thing. But when it happens too often, too long, one realizes it’s a problem. In the recent years I’ve cried too many times. It helps sometimes to let it all out. But…
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Who Me? Changed? No!.. Ok. Yes, Maybe …
Some say I’ve changed. I am not the fun, energetic, outgoing person I use to be. I’ve even heard that I have mood swings. No shit, I’m a woman, like every woman! But, is this who I am now? Moody, serious? No way!…
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Heaven can wait
This morning, a small white pillow feather lay on the bedroom floor. My daughter picked it up and gave it to me. She said, “Mommy, this is for you. I know why you like feathers.” I asked, “Really? Why?” She replied, “Because…
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Old, Unwanted Friend
Once in a while this sadness covers my soul. It’s not like the other unwelcomed emotions because those are like little children throwing a tantrum. They can be easily ignored, quieted and put to sleep. Though they’re whiny, and kind of crazy, I…
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